Stalemate

I’m stuck inside a stalemate I don’t know when it began,
I sure as hell couldn’t stop it then and I sure as hell can’t now
The only thing I know to do that works,
is sit and feel this hurt.

I’ve woken up so many time to wonder where I’m at,
I sure feel like I knew it, before I took this 4 day nap,
But I’ve grown to love this place, sitting with my pain.

I’ve become a stranger, to myself but no one else,
they all think I’ve got it down no need to call my bluff
How odd a place, which recognized my game, with nothing left to say.

If this was a daydream, I’d make sure I was a star,
A selfish vagabond who’s consumed with nothing more.
Than keeping all who love him safely at arm’s length.

So ruffle my pillow & make sure I’m awake,
There’s endless, new horizons
Yesterday can’t take.
All this reality is here and now
in every waking hour.

Hideaway

I’m left here with just my thoughts, find myself, then start again
impossible to comprehend, the beginning, now the end
saw our stars collide, hold on, for the thrill of a lifetime
the sky where the moonlight finds, lonely stars- fell to the earth

And we had somewhere to go, where no one could find us
Exhaust the days until night, with our worlds divided

My Little Guy, the Mirror

Son…

When I see it for what it is, they shrunk you from me,
including personalities.
How lucky, disconcerting face, aimless grin trailing somewhere behind the tail of the wind.
Always self conscious, places to hide.
The rollercoaster pulling hair-pin turns and never letting up at the peak of the sky.

The way you twist a slice of pizza into envelope size, full of cheese, ignoring the crust.
Skin freckled, sandwiched between opaline globes- contorted in its own symmetrical array.
No lack of insecurity, no spare trust.
Subtle gestures in crowds, sometimes explosive and back to reserved.
Struggle to co-exist, crowded restaurant, pretend to ignore– maybe you can’t hear with all that noise.

I know the truth “wink,wink”.
They all must be talking about you,
yeah, I do hear that.
They glare from everywhere.
Don’t look now,
I’ve discovered my shadow

Make Believe

Goodbye slab, concrete yard
Splintered branches stretched out far.
Littered from an aging tree, kids playing fantasy
I once had done the same, imagination running free,
sticks as swords, conjuring knights, dragons, mythology.
Adulthood took that away from me.

Was this the place that was meant for us- make believe??
When the drink took ahold and wouldn’t release,
until back into the fold, the wild; where they found me.

Gave my last breath to have you back again
Make peace with those who drifted off along the way…

Terra Nova Love Junky

I’d take you anyway you would come
Just know I’m gone before you’re done
It’s in my nature to not care what happens to us
Settled less in your heart more than it ever was
My box shaped heart, jagged lines where butterflies stirred
Dreams of adolescents who found love the first time, possible, inert
Maturity and leftovers, jilted lovers fighting over the scraps
Spilling into streams of lust, I would trade for the hole filled gaps
purpose- stripped of pretense
And all the strings we puppeteer with safety nets
We commandeer,
Over and over

Until I walk home, passing your remnants along the road
Moths scurried in darkness, no color to their wings
Three months severed, petty things,
no wisdom to bleed

I feel let down,
Not by you
But by myself

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This is my friend Caitlyn’s writing. Very mature for a 21 year old. Enjoy & share…

I’ve been waiting my whole life
For a promise to bloom
Rings of Saturn on my finger
Lost in explosive thoughts
And silent resonance
Of a tiny diamond

Beneath the black sky
And blankets of summer
Dew drop eyes
With orbital embraces
You pull me in further
Forever we will fly

Be my empty space
In a world too much
Be the fill I need
When my home is empty
I need you by my side
When stars no longer shine

They say defying gravity
Is godliness
I float from place to place
Space to space
With you
So I guess you’re my savior

Start with any gaze
Map out what we have
Lay it on a table
Try to put it to scale
But my love for you is too big
Philosophy has no say here

If you beat me to the heavens
And I crash into time
Weave me constellations
So I know you’re still mine

I may leave first
Unwillingly, no doubt
Without trajectory goodbyes
I may float off into darkness
No light may scare you
But I will be there with open arms
Of sunlight
And the silent resonance
Rings of endless comfort
In a diamond